Take me back to Texas so I can be a complete fatass & watch movies with him. It would be nice. *sigh..
Maybe I shouldn’t take it to the heart but it’s hard to brush this off. It’s quite unfair to me. Dating a different race shouldn’t be this difficult. I’m trying. I’ve sent his parents postcards while I was away. I bought every goodie bag with my own money. I kept them updated with their son’s life. I offer to help to cook & clean. And every text I send, I actually take my time to send a genuine answer. But I just don’t feel like it’s enough to impress them. I see myself marrying their son. I will love him everyday. I will strive everyday to make him the happiest man in the world. I really hope one day his parents, sisters, and extended family see that. I’m not dating him because he’s in the uniform. I have loved him before the military. I make my own money, I pay my own bills, and I get my education done. I don’t want them to believe that their son is going through this phase. I don’t want them thinking that his son is young & that he’ll grow tired of me. It sickens me. But I have to keep trying. I want to be able to have in laws that welcome me as their own. I don’t want to be that person who has to distant herself from her in laws. I might be just over thinking it, but today made me believe it more. I can’t do anything about it. All I have to do is keep trying and hope for the better. I just wish he was home more often to bond with his family and clear their views about me….
It’s alright. Wipe your tears, pick yourself up, & do better. Everything will be fine…
"I love you more than life itself, I’m so proud of the man you’ve become and I’m so lucky to be able to see the changes in you. You make me want to be a better person and I will strive everyday to make you the happiest man in the world, even if you are 4,000 miles away from me. We got this, it’s me and you. Always has been, always will be."
Just because I’m in a stable relationship with a soldier does not mean that we’ll be the military couple who marry early. The long distance is hard, but before he joined the service we were in a long distance relationship to begin with. If we could handle that, then what is going to bring us down now? I’m not in a rush. We’re still young.
I’ve worked so hard to get to where I am right now. I know without my parents I wouldn’t have made it this far, but I really wish they took my graduation night a little more serious. It’s been 3 months since my LVN graduation, but as months pass by I will never forget what happened. I wish all of you were there to see the pictures we had in our slideshow. So you can see how hard we worked to graduate. If you only all of you were there to see our personal slides. If only all of you were there to hear the thank you speech I gave you as I walked the stage. If only you captured a photo of me walking the stage, instead of me getting it from another family. If only you were all there to sit for the entire ceremony. I don’t how much I’ve cried that night. I don’t know how many text messages I received from my classmates asking if I was okay. Thea had to keep rubbing my arm for comfort. I honestly envy all of my classmates that night. They never got to feel what I felt. How does it feel to spend 11 months through hell? And every weekend you had to show up to work? How does it feel to barely have sleep & still get high grades? How would you feel if you worked so hard to be a nursing graduate & your loved ones missed you graduation night? I bet you would never like to be in my spot. I appreciate you guys for being there for me through thick & thin, but I really wished you took my special night more serious. I wouldn’t have done that to you.